not dead

Married life= amazing. Things that I didn't consider before marriage was that transitions are hard for me. Surprise!
Getting comfy in my role as: teacher, wife, homemaker, employee, student, big sister, new daughter.
I've been busier and more industrious than I ever have in my whole life. And about once a week I take a breather and realize that even though I'm standing still everything around me is still moving.
Over the weekend we went to Cali to see one of my husband's friends get married and we had a pool party in a hotel pool and we made a whirl pool. Despite the fact that we may have stopped swimming for a brief moment the momentum kept us in motion. That is the story of my life.

Amazing things have taken course over that last couple of weeks. Felt opposition- took it out with faith. After my triumph gained super awesome insight.

And so the fight was worth it. I'm in love with the gospel. I love the Holy Ghost and the promptings and whisperings that it delivers. I'm most grateful for the fact that he can point out what I wouldn't normally see as a dynamic moment in time.

Jesus Christ is my redeemer and healer. Direct faith in him creates the ability to over come anything. Which is awesome!

Things I'm excited for: Graduating from the business college this year. Teaching my class and Speaking on sunday, & Singing this christmas, Taking voice and piano lessons to remind my body of how I once was an instrument.

Scriptures= best gift God could give to us. Study them.

Anywho: you know me. I love Jesus, I love my family new and old, I love music, I love art.

that I would good

I really love honesty.
I love honest love more.
I love when the sun makes you shine.
I love when you get bashful because I can't stop looking at you.
I love when an orchestra plays together but they build with intensity as instruments are added.
I like that most drummers can make you feel the beat in your heart in live music.
I think it's incredible when music itches the back of your legs and makes you move.
I think it's life changing when you find a sculpture that you identify with.
Or even more with a painters entire collection because your ideals are already portrayed.
I'm satisfied with the fact that my dreams are coming closer to reality.
I can't help but smile when I remember praying and feeling assurance of those dreams.
I love light, and i love that Einstein was obsessed, and the fact that Jesus Christ is the light of the world, and the fact that Rembrandt painted it perfectly.
School's out in three weeks- and something else amazing will probably happen in that time.
It pumps me up.
I like that what is, doesn't need to be dressed up because it's already beautiful.
I love that i fell asleep for 3 hours at the end of the day and didn't worry about it.
I love that I could make a five year plan yesterday.
I love that I cooked without a recipe tonight and it was a hit.
I like that you can watch the sunrise any day, but i especially love it on Easter.
I love that there is nothing like a hug from a family member.
I love that even though sometimes seem impossible, through Jesus Christ they are not.
I really appreciate that there are living prophets and apostles, that the truth has been restored, and that we can have a perfect knowledge of who we are.

"That I would be good, even if I got a thumbs down."

I like when I play a song for you for the first time i give you all the disclaimers and you agree to still love me even if it sucks.
I've learned that even when it's not good- it can get great.

chic chica chicah!

So, I had plans to wedding dress shop about a week ago- and I was going to go to bridal expo- but my partner in crime- aka the girl who has done this before and that was going to go with me got sick- so we couldn't go. which was lame sauce- but since then I've been able to simmer more over some websites and photos and come up with a couple of idea.

Idea 1)
I'm thinking birdcage veil.
I'm thinking classy white 3/4 length boat neck bodice fitted to a skirt that flows and has ruffles- not too many ruffles- tea length, mid calf- buttons down the back.
excite? This paired with big pearl earings and a short pearl necklace. I saw this in a Martha Stewart Catalog about 3 or 4 years ago. Getting that exact ensemble is out of the question- but taking the idea is not.

Idea 2)
I'm thinking headband with white flowers on the side
I'm thinking again boatneck satin bodice with cap sleeves this time, fitted to the skirt- where there is tulle- lots of it.
This I'm thinking paired with floral Diamond earings and a slight short necklace with side pendant- like my butterfly necklack- except fancier.

I'm going shopping tomorrow morning- and maybe in the evening as well- so that should be stellar.

I'm trying to come up with things that will correlate with my hair- its pixie cut now. I'm debating on growing it out a touch for the celebrations. about 6 weeks ago I went blonde for a second, as I am a natural brunette- deep dark brunette. It only stayed for a little while, and now I have red hair- which will soon be back to my natural. I'll be coloring it this coming weekend. I'm hoping that by the Ceremony I will either have hair that will be grown out or have hair that is all virgin.

Something else

So... after counseling with my other half- things will be less rockstar and more summer picnic. which is relaxed and fun.

Trying to pull everything together can be stressful- especially with a budget. But it will all work out.
This week I'm going to start wedding dress shopping. I'm not going to be the girl that finds the dress and buys it right away. I know that it's going to be something that I'm going to have to think about for a while.
I am going to either buy the dress at the end of this month, or the beginning of the next.
Cool thing. I'm on my significant other's new years resolutions.

and then they jumped

So its not official- but I will tell you, its time to start getting idea's together. I probably have a month or so until it is official and then a four month or so engangement- so I I figure 6 months out is an ideal amount of time to plan a wedding.

ah AH AH!!! I'm excited, are you? Right now I'm laying out the foundation for what is really the idea or feel of the wedding. I want to be original and have a blast. I really want my wedding to kind of have a summer carnival feel. I want it to be relaxed but formal at the same time.

I want to have a wedding party. I want to have a reception in a stake center- like a thrifty mormon would. But I think I want Candy instead of flowers. And I think I want a cotton candy machine, and I think I want my reception to have like a huge festival theme- mostly because carnival's are fun! Plus I need an excuse to have a bounce house! I want live music.
I want a dj for like 2 hrs after the live music has played out. I want snacks not a meal. I want cupcakes- not a cake. These are thoughts I'm having. I think I will have to run most of these by the Zach before I get too set in stone. But he's pretty awesome, so I think I might be able to talk him into it.